By What Name Shall I Call You?
As I begin my meditation this morning, I reflect on the busyness of the week just past and contemplate the week ahead which promises to be even busier. And in the midst of all of this busyness, I ponder about where there is time to just BE. It seems that life moves at an ever-increasing pace and there are so many things I need and even WANT to do that the need to simply BE hardly ever enters my awareness – except at times like this when I attempt to lay aside the “doing” for a few moments to meditate. It is in these moments of allowing myself to be still – even if for a short 15 or 20 minutes that I am finally able to connect with my Source.
I often speak with God in these moments before deeper meditation, as I do in prayer at other times during the day. This day the thought that floats across my awareness as I begin to relax and enter a deeper stillness is one that has been on my mind a lot lately… In recent months a question has been forming, through the continued expansion of my awakening, that I have not had a comfortable answer for. “By what name shall I call you?” I grew up in a Christian home, although casually so, and God was always God or Jesus. Most of the time it was easy to pray to a God who had the characteristics of a loving grandfather or big brother. These were characteristics that were part of my world and ones that I could identify with. I just made God the BEST of either understanding and communicated with “Him” in that way.
Since I began to awaken to the nature of God being so much more than these perceptions, I have been on a journey to discover how to name that which is unnamable. How does one address the great power that is within and yet beyond? Sacred Mystery? Creator? Source? Some are too impersonal for me – God has always been a PERSON in my thoughts. Spirit? Father? Mother? Many refer to the Divine Infinite as The Beloved and that seems to fit well for my heart – but still I do not know. I have always had a personal relationship with the being I knew as God and have always had some sort of image in my mind when I prayed. It’s difficult to admit, but there have been times when it has been a struggle to pray because I haven’t had a clear image of who/what/where I’m praying TO. I wonder sometimes if this isn’t why humans have always established “religions” – to help tell us how to “see” that power which is the Creator of the universe and as such is truthfully unfathomable.
In this morning’s meditation my mind asks again this question as I begin to speak to God… “By what name shall I call you?” And this time the answer appears clear and strong across the window of my mind. “It matters not what you call me – only that you call.” And I feel tears of joy well up and threaten to escape as I feel an incomprehensible love fill and surround me – strong arms encircle my entire being as I am gathered into the tender embrace of The Beloved and shown at the deepest core of my being how much I am truly loved and cherished.
What we CALL the Infinite Source of Love is not important. The specific words we use to bring us into an awareness of the closeness of the ultimate Creative Power that is both that which is within and that which is larger than ourselves are not significant. Whatever name we choose to give that Divine Light to bring us into closer union with the Loving Parent, we need simply to call… Our Creator loves us with a love that surpasses anything we can ever know or experience in this human existence and simply wants us to realize that we are ONE with that Source of Love. We are ONE with The Beloved and desired beyond our understanding. So CALL… Speak to Your Beloved. Talk with your Father, Mother, Great Spirit. Do not worry about the name you are led to use – God will answer no matter what name you choose. And The Sacred Mystery always answers with a love that will fill and encompass you as no other love you have ever experienced before.